No Coffee This Time

Yep. Just clouds.

Had my 6th stick. Caused me chest pain. Made tears in my eye.

I don’t know. Maybe the unmet deadlines. Or the anxiety for tomorrow’s session.

Or the future loss of my beloved cat. Currently embracing him. Will be gone tomorrow.

To miss you.

Wanna make a sonnet for Nge-Nge, but too groggy for that.

The violin perhaps.

Maybe the sad songs.

Or the loss.

I love you.

Goodbye.

Comments

Anonymous said…
sounds like Celine Dion...hehehe.
5:17 PM
tantric said…
divang-diva ang post mo, mother!
5:17 PM
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